Monday, April 7
like with anything, i guess, you have to optimistic at the beginning, and afterward, at the end, but at some point in the middle that's not good enough, and you have to try to be realistic - just now it feels like pessimism. so i don't know. ira keeps telling me "you don't have to be so sad," and i think he has a point. there's comfort: it's an ending only in a limited sense; in other maybe more important ways it's not that at all. i'll be fine. it's harder to cry in the mornings. and someday, soon soon, the weather will be happy too.
i always liked this line but i'm still not sure whether i think it's true:
…if you do it and you're still unhappy…