Wednesday, April 9
i just left lang thinking it was ten o'clock. and then i realized i read the hands wrong and it's really ten to midnight. which means i was there for almost four and a half hours, working on a composition and taking a break to go to chorus rehearsal (carmina burana is fun! you should come to the concert!) i like the piece i'm writing so far (not much to it yet), but i'm of course making it hard on myself, trying to be all contrapuntal and emotive and so on.
so, all i need to do academicworkwise for tomorrow is a bit more of that. but there's so much else that needs going on. i can't talk about it all now, but basically the point is i can't talk about it all now.
the best part of today, maybe (both enjoyable and relevant): talking to elena and eli/alana during philorelg break about the multiplicity of components/personae within an 'individual', in the contexts of love, and relating but also self-awareness and beyond; claimed/constructed performative personae. i actually feel like i have a fairly well unified identity, possibly more so in the last few years, and it manifests or is perhaps partly created by this blogsite, which is a topic for further discussion later (also the specific characters of blogs in general, and how they relate with their authors.)
that said, i'm again at a point where "how are you" is a confusing question, and it's at least as much the "you" part as anything else. but still, i will try to answer. and i'm not answering "badly" any more, i'm answering "okay" and meaning it.
i was dancing when i was twelve
i was dancing when i was twelve
i was dancing when i was ohhh
i was dancing when i was ohhh
so, all i need to do academicworkwise for tomorrow is a bit more of that. but there's so much else that needs going on. i can't talk about it all now, but basically the point is i can't talk about it all now.
the best part of today, maybe (both enjoyable and relevant): talking to elena and eli/alana during philorelg break about the multiplicity of components/personae within an 'individual', in the contexts of love, and relating but also self-awareness and beyond; claimed/constructed performative personae. i actually feel like i have a fairly well unified identity, possibly more so in the last few years, and it manifests or is perhaps partly created by this blogsite, which is a topic for further discussion later (also the specific characters of blogs in general, and how they relate with their authors.)
that said, i'm again at a point where "how are you" is a confusing question, and it's at least as much the "you" part as anything else. but still, i will try to answer. and i'm not answering "badly" any more, i'm answering "okay" and meaning it.
i was dancing when i was twelve
i was dancing when i was twelve
i was dancing when i was ohhh
i was dancing when i was ohhh
