some birds are funny when they talk








Stuck in my Head
"Kiss Me Harder" by Bertine Zetlitz
"Hot" by Avril
"Brain Problem Situation" by They Might Be Giants

Now Reading
Number 9 Dream by David Mitchell
Hateship, Friendship, Courtship, Loveship, Marriage by Alice Munro

Recently Finished
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by David Eggers
Lonesome Dove by Larry McMurtry
Mad Tony and Me by Carl Hoffman
Sweet Soul Music by Peter Guaralnick
This Must Be The Place: Adventures of Talking Heads in the 20th Century by David Bowman
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Movies Lately
4 Months 3 Weeks 2 Days
Oscar Nominated Animated Shorts
Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus: Best of Both Worlds Concert Tour
2 Days in Paris
United 93
The Savages
The Bourne Ultimatum
Sweeney Todd
The Departed
What Would Jesus Buy?
Ghost World
I'm Not There
She's The Man
Lars and the Real Girl
Romance and Cigarettes
No Country for Old Men
Into the Wild
I Want Someone to Eat Cheese With
Across the Universe

Shows Lately
Damo Suzuki/Stinking Lizaveta @ Mill Creek
Death and the Maiden @ Curio
Devon Sproule/Carsie Blanton/Devin Greenwood/John Francis @ Tin Angel
Assassins @ The Arden
Oakley Hall and the Teeth @ Johnny Brendas
Isabella and Flamingo/Winnebago and Map Me and Gatz and Songs of the Dragons Flying to Heaven and Sonic Dances and Strawberry Farm and The Emperor Jones and No Dice and Hearts of Man and Principles of Uncertainty and Isabella and BATCH and Addicted to Bad Ideas: Peter Lorre's 20th Century and Car and Sports Trilogy and Explanatorium and Wandering Alice and Must Don't Whip Um and Festival of Lies and A Room of Ones Own and Recitatif @ the Philadelphia Live Arts Festival/Philly Fringe
Martha Graham Cracker and Eliot Levin and Kilo etc. @ the Fringe Cabaret
Lullatone and Teletextile @ Boulder Coffee [Rochester]
TV Sound @ the M Room
Aretha Franklin @ East Dell, Fairmount Pk.
Romeo + Juliet in Clark Park
Daft Punk @ Red Rocks
Spoon @ Rockefeller Park
Ponytail at Pony Pants' House
Mirah/Benjy Ferree @ the 1UC
Tortoise @ World Cafe Live
Hall & Oates...ish
"Nuclear Dreams" - Mascher Dance Group, x2
The Four of Us @ 1812
Machines Machines Machines Machines Machines Machines Machines by Rainpan whatever
Mascher Dance Group/Nathaniel Bartlett
Cornelius @ TLA
Sloan @ World Cafe
In Fluxxxx
Slavic Soul Party!/Red Heart the Ticker @ I-House
the Fantasticks @ Mum
Peter Bjork + Jorn/Fujiya + Miyagi @ fkaTLA
John Vanderslice @ Johnny Brendas
The Books & Todd Reynolds @ 1UC
Into the Woods @ LPAC
The Fishbowl @ the Frear
Caroline, or, Change @ the Arden
Low & Loney, Dear. @ 1UC

Sunday, May 11

i just had to retrace my steps down to the jungly unkempt grass behind sharples where i figured my key must have slipped out my shallow sunday-pockets (these impractical pants, just right for today, once cost me a whole guatemalan wallet, at the paper moon diner in baltimore). lucky thing i knew where to look, as the grass is wet and high.

good grass and a good day to be barefoot. a lot of people complained about the weather, but couldn't decide whether it was hot or cold. maybe it was too in-between. really, it was humid - joanna said muggy, but us right-coasters know better. it was kind of perpetually-before-a-thunderstorm, but we still didn't get one. i for one thought it was very pleasant, the best out-of-doors day in a while.

the weather, actually, was mostly what picked me up by late afternoon - before (well, i only got up around 1, and i spent an hour or two in sharples, where you can't have emotions anyway) i had been, not sad, but not happy; too in-between i guess. better once i figured out the right thing to do with the weather - not lay out on the beach struggling to concentrate on baudrillard (though that was a good try) but climb the malus florabunda ("showy crabapple") outside my room. all the way to the top, where it gets hard because the branches are so dense. i couldn't see my feet, but i had a nice view otherwise.

oh, i like all my love-interests much so that it sometimes seems strange that those past are necessarily to be less signifying and ascendant than those present. well, and as it's been established, foolish. but a fool for love is maybe the best kind of fool to be - and alyssa points out i'm only foolish when i want to be. those people that are crazy for being happy always are often called fools. and, this is all foolish: there are plenty of lovers for all of us (the absence of desire, discovered or reinvented, seems to work for hannah; you always have your weird admirers and something unknown besides; and of course we know about me, or else not) it's just a question of what to do about them. that has to not be the question at the moment though.

i am still determined to punch out my last fct two-pager tonight, though it's a bit tricky convincing myself since it's a mostly arbitrary day, being a week-and-a-half past due as it is. but i shall do it. maybe i'll try to read the rest of simulacra and simulations before i write, though that is a much less pertinent form of procrastination than it seems. if marginally more than this.

i can turn the grey sky blue
i can make it rain whenever i want it to
i can make a castle from a single grain of sand
i can make a ship sail, ha, on dry land