don't know why i'm breaking down a bit now. probably it will all be better in the morning, when i need to get up probably like 6:30 to produce-shop and then ride up to wanakena. i feel like it will be so short and overloaded that it will feel really really short and just make me upset, so i'm getting upset now in anticipation. which is not good. a bad sign that i just want to spend all my time leaving philadelphia. (good news is i'm working when i get back: two 12-hour shifts - 5:45-5:45 - of inventory at tower.) there were so many major plan changes and changes-back today i've lost count. stress planning can get tripful. talking to my parents made me almost cry. also, this snow patrol album, the first one, is kind of mediocre, it's making me weepy too. (something i liked would be worse.)
i'm going to call angela.
i guess i need to get a car so i can just go north by myself, whenever i want. or maybe i should just stay there this time.
will i or nill i write a jim white review tonite? (wish i may…) and other questions that seem big, at the time. (maybe my real problem is i haven't eaten more than a few bites today?)